Breathe In Breathe Out

Breathe In Breathe Out

As I’ve mentioned before, my family comes from a long line of premature babies. I myself was premature, my sisters were both premature, and my niece was born premature. Throughout my whole pregnancy the thought of her coming early has always been looming in the back of my mind. Now that I’m at 33 weeks, I am feeling that so close but yet so far away nerves and just praying and hoping with my whole being that she doesn’t try to come early! For the past two weeks I’ve been having anxiety ridden dreams of an early baby and it’s been a real struggle. My whole goal is to take one day at a time and try to breathe in and breathe out.

I’ll Never Say “I’m Done” with being pregnant

A full term pregnancy and even a late pregnancy is such a blessing. If I get to that 37/38 week mark, I know that my baby will most likely be perfectly healthy and not have to stay in the NICU. It’s hard for me to hear people say that they’re done with being pregnant when my whole heart desires for that healthy full term baby.

I GET IT!

I know why people say it–pregnancy is very hard and its unbelievably taxing. There are really hard days where it’d be easy for me to wish the pain away. There are days  filled with uncomfortable contractions, aches and pains, jabbing and kicking galore. Some days I’m tired, I’m hot, I have no energy…it’s hard! BUT, it’s also a gift. Therefore, I’m choosing to take those really hard days with those really amazing days. When I want to give up I choose to put my hand on my belly and feel her move and remember the gift that I’ve been given. 

Just keep Swimming!

So, yes I am really battling anxiety right now but I’m trying to take it one step at at a time. This experience has been a lesson and reminder that I am not in control. I can place all of my anxiety and all of my worries on God. I know that He has a plan for baby girl. Whether she comes before we’d like her to, right on time, or a little late, she will be loved and taken care of. Until I meet her face to face, my prayer is simply for a healthy baby girl that I can pour my love on to and care for her the best that I can. 

Any preemie moms or preemie readers out there?

Tell me in the comments below!

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16 thoughts on “Breathe In Breathe Out

  1. I had my son first and he was 15 days early and I had my daughter second and she was 2 days late. You just never know. If you are convinced you will be early, watch you will be late!!!

  2. Your anxiety is real and valid, but you are also so mindful and aware and strong and full of love for your baby girl. It will all come as it is supposed to. Sending you so much peace, patience and love <3

  3. Love your thoughts on this sweet girl! We induced Adeline at 40 weeks + 4 days and I remember thinking I would have given my left arm to have her like a week prior but you are so right. It is a BLESSING to carry a baby to full term, and something we should absolutely not take for granted.

  4. I totally understand why women say that – pregnancy is hard, even when you have an “easy” pregnancy like I did – but I understand the other side, too. I was right on time, and my son was 2 days early (or 4 days late, depending on which due date you go by, my original one or my “revised” one when I switched doctors), but I know a lot of people who were or had preemies. Wishing you and Baby Girl the best these last weeks. <3

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