Breathe In Breathe Out
As I’ve mentioned before, my family comes from a long line of premature babies. I myself was premature, my sisters were both premature, and my niece was born premature. Throughout my whole pregnancy the thought of her coming early has always been looming in the back of my mind. Now that I’m at 33 weeks, I am feeling that so close but yet so far away nerves and just praying and hoping with my whole being that she doesn’t try to come early! For the past two weeks I’ve been having anxiety ridden dreams of an early baby and it’s been a real struggle. My whole goal is to take one day at a time and try to breathe in and breathe out.
I’ll Never Say “I’m Done” with being pregnant
A full term pregnancy and even a late pregnancy is such a blessing. If I get to that 37/38 week mark, I know that my baby will most likely be perfectly healthy and not have to stay in the NICU. It’s hard for me to hear people say that they’re done with being pregnant when my whole heart desires for that healthy full term baby.
I GET IT!
I know why people say it–pregnancy is very hard and its unbelievably taxing. There are really hard days where it’d be easy for me to wish the pain away. There are days filled with uncomfortable contractions, aches and pains, jabbing and kicking galore. Some days I’m tired, I’m hot, I have no energy…it’s hard! BUT, it’s also a gift. Therefore, I’m choosing to take those really hard days with those really amazing days. When I want to give up I choose to put my hand on my belly and feel her move and remember the gift that I’ve been given.
Just keep Swimming!
So, yes I am really battling anxiety right now but I’m trying to take it one step at at a time. This experience has been a lesson and reminder that I am not in control. I can place all of my anxiety and all of my worries on God. I know that He has a plan for baby girl. Whether she comes before we’d like her to, right on time, or a little late, she will be loved and taken care of. Until I meet her face to face, my prayer is simply for a healthy baby girl that I can pour my love on to and care for her the best that I can.
Any preemie moms or preemie readers out there?
Tell me in the comments below!